It seems that every time I write. My blog discerns a depiction of my life that is spiraling downwards. But trust me it’s not negativity, it’s just the reality that I see. { I’m a very happy person actually. }
& Yet again, I have the art foundation blues. The pathway has begun and we’ve been set a pathway F&T {Fashion textiles} project – you can read about here!
That is also – my fashion/foundation course/ blog. It’s new, so still developing – originally this blog was intended for exactly that but it turned out to be more of a personal blog where I just put EVERYTHING imaginable.
Anything that I can bring myself to write about anyway.
& In response to the title – it’s me actually. This foundation course obviously wants to dictate you to draw and present your work and express yourself in a way that is appropriate for ticking boxes to go onto a good course at University but following guidelines is zapping all the original creativity out of me. For the first time in a long time I flicked through on old sketchbook of mine. I remembered how much I loved my old work compared to what I’m producing now. I can hardly draw the same after honing my skills now. I find it a little sad really. I mean – I still keep an element of my style within my works. But only enough to keep me from being told not to involve it.
It’s the same issue with Manga/Anime styled drawings. Mine are also stylised hence inappropriate. Because the foundation course wants you to learn the basics and clear your slate so that you are fully prepared for being flexible for university. It’s working backwards for me. Since I’ve already established such a strong sense of drawing style.
I’m taking myself apart, and putting myself together again – yes, so I can be part of the system. So I can tick the boxes. So I can please others, but myself.
But it’s not all bad – I am learning, and I am having fun on this course, I do feel that I am acquiring a wider set of skills and who knows? After all – I may find an improved version of myself at the end of it all.
Welcome to a few of my sketchings & doodles. They’re uncompleted fast pieces of rough work so they’re not finished to any degree really. But I like that kind of in-progress developing work, I do sketch a lot . . .
Apologies for the quality also – I would’ve scanned them but that’d mean lifting the scanner into my room and then having to do a lot of hoo-ha which quite frankly doesn’t appeal to a lazy person like me!
Mistune (c)
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Even if the foundation course feels like it’s stamping out your own original sketch work, everything will be fine when the year is out. Grit your teeth and let your style shine through where you can . After all, no artist is the same, even in fashion, drawing, painting, etc.
University is different, your tutors don’t tell you what you can and cannot do they constantly tell you that you cannot go wrong, art is art, as long as you have research and work hard to back it up, then you’re perfectly fine. I once spoke to a manga creator and told him about how teachers dislike manga and his reply was “That’s just them being art snobs and not accepting other art forms that they cannot understand.”
Best thing to do to keep your style alive, create a side sketch book, just for your personal use, like you’ve done with your sketches on here.
It helped me alot x
I’ve had this conversation many a times and the same thoughts running through my head. I know artists develop all the time, but I just can’t help but feel a little nostalgic. There are times where my work is good and I enjoy what I do, changing from my comfort zone is like an artists block, but I’ll keep my mind open – because I know it’s all good experience.
Thanks for your words of support.
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